the usual new year resolution

1) work

2)work hard

3)work harder

4)lose weight

5)be a vegetarian

6)less pps learn more

7)read more

8)no more shopping till grad

work work work!

my personal tutor working on the 23th of dec, for the new edition of Rang and Dale.

I better start bucking up too.

the queen in Hermes headscarf

又多少人想好像女皇般萬人之上.

可說到尾, 她是位普通的老婆婆.

mouse handling

that life.

I’ve talked to an old friend of mine today, and it’s great. Losing touch for about two years, there’s finally some fresh air into it. I can’t say much about the matter, but it’s a situation that happened in everyone’s best friend’s relationship.

We talked about our life. How’s his school life and mine. But the thing i want to blog about today is what we actually want to do in our life. Before I came to UK he told me he wanted to go to cookery school, apparently he didn’t. To please his parents, he said.

How many lives we actually have that we can actually do what we really want? Fuck the reality and the money world. There are so many times in life that I still don’t know who I really are. Ok, pursuing a Phd is what I want, what my parents expect, but is it who Sandy Chan is?

I want to be a______.

writer, painter, photographer, actor, travelling blogger anyone?

想喊.

好耐無認真地喊.

I know i’m abit late..

but i fell in love with Queen recently.

too much love will kill you

I’m just the pieces of the man I used to be
Too many bitter tears are raining down on me
I’m far away from home
And I’ve been facing this alone
For much too long
I feel like no-one ever told the truth to me
About growing up and what a struggle it would be
In my tangled state of mind
I’ve been looking back to find
Where I went wrong
Too much love will kill you
If you can’t make up your mind
Torn between the lover
And the love you leave behind
You’re headed for disaster
‘cos you never read the signs
Too much love will kill you
Every time
I’m just the shadow of the man I used to be
And it seems like there’s no way out of this for me
I used to bring you sunshine
Now all I ever do is bring you down
How would it be if you were standing in my shoes
Can’t you see that it’s impossible to choose
No there’s no making sense of it
Every way I go I’m bound to lose
Too much love will kill you
Just as sure as none at all
It’ll drain the power that’s in you
Make you plead and scream and crawl
And the pain will make you crazy
You’re the victim of your crime
Too much love will kill you
Every time
Too much love will kill you
It’ll make your life a lie
Yes, too much love will kill you
And you won’t understand why
You’d give your life, you’d sell your soul
But here it comes again
Too much love will kill you
In the end…
In the end.

這麼近, 那麼遠.

現實和理想有時真是差很遠.

想困在夢中, 不想醒來.

Whoa

Ok I didn’t expect sm to reply that fast after she said she had given up on my rotten blog. Anw I did say I will blog more that’s why I added wordpress app on my iPhone.(apparently I’m tapping on my phone now) Anyway update to people reading life had been rather stressful since I came back,or I stressed myself too much. Either way I’m just stressed. Too much reading need to do,too much self taking notes to organize,too much info for phd application,and too much funding I need to apply. On top of that I have an essay deadline to come and I’m still reading references for them. After next week I hope this cloud above me is cleared so I can really focus on application stuff. Meeting up with my personal tutor got me prepared for the worst to come- that it is extremely difficult for foreign students to get funding. That afternoon after the meeting I went home curling like a ball on my bed. I need to evolve. Into some stress-free fish.

hello

i watched My sister’s keeper.

just cant stop crying.